My Struggle

I know I'm supposed to have something profound to add to my blog every day. But, being new to blogging, I wasn't sure anything I had to say was very useful to anyone else. Then I decided that I'm not so different from everyone esle. I struggle day to day trying to find a better way of life and to improve my God given talents, whatever they may be.

So I have decided to use my blog to talk about the issues in my life and how I am dealing with them and what I discover helps me to imporve my life. There are plenty of profound bloggers out there and I wouldn't presume to add myself to their class or level of usefulness.

I hope some of you will comment and offer suggestions from time to time on the subjects I post.

Today during my quiet time I discovered that journaling and writing down the things that are pressing on my mind helps me to sort them out. The things that are most concerning to me that are hard to find the words for during prayer, come easier to me when I write them down. As I type them into my journal, often I find that inspiration comes to mind and there's an honesty within my mind that sometimes pride, shame, or fear keeps me from openly admiting. For example, I have been given a great opportunity to increase my income with a new opportunity. But I seam unable to get started. I have fallen for all the negative around me. I am to proud to risk judgement from my family and peers. I'm too ashamed to face those that are paying the price for freedom from debt. I am afraid of what others will say about my business.

Why is it I know these things yet still let them influence me?

Thanksgiving!

What exactly does Thanksgiving mean to us these days! Are we thankful for our material things? Certainly these are gifts from the Father, as well as health, freedom, our home, etc. But, I was thinking more on the line of being thankful for a more precious gift this year. Yes I am grateful for my family and my neighbors, but more than that I am thankful for the assurance that Christ came to this earth, suffered and died so that I will have eternal life in Heaven with Him and the Father. In light of that, all else pales!

PARENTS SURVIVING THE LOSS OF A CHILD

I wasn't sure about this topic. Then I realized that the purpose of this blog, as I understand it, is to share what is foremost on my mind with the hope that someone else will benefit from my experience and put to use some of what I, and others, have learned on a particular subject.

Unfortunately, this is a subject I am far too familiar with. People say, "Peggy, it's been so long, shouldn't you put this behind you?" Well, they are correct in that is has been a long time. We lost our sixteen year old daughter to cancer on Feb 10, 1988; almost 22 years ago....and yesterday. Only someone who has not lost a child can make such comments. To my husband and I, especially this time of year, our lives were fractured on that day. Like the fracture of a major bone in your body, it has healed, but there is an obvious scar to anyone who knows where to look.

For many years I would chastise myself for constantly keeping her in, if not the forefront surely, the back of my mind at all times. I would tell myself all the standard clich?s and expect that things would fall into place as expected by those who taught me those clich?s. Then with time I was able to receive a work from God that helped me. I don't know exactly why, but it made me realize that my hope was true. And I could remember her with joy and sometimes with loneliness, but always with hope for forever. Those scriptures were Acts 2: 24-28.

Have joy and peace my fellow parents. For a day comes for those of us who follow Christ that we will have our children back....FOREVER !!!

An Excellant Read!!

I've just fininshed "The Greatest Miracle in the World", by Og Mandino. If you've been disallusioned and hurt from life's trials and pains, I heartily recommend this book. It will remind you that you are a miracle of God and can do all things through Him who lives within you!!

It's a new day!!

Daily commitment is essential to success! Yesterday is gone, tomarrow soesn't exist, today is all we have with no promise of the next moment!!

Missed Appointments!

I had a great appointment today! I had arranged for my up-line to come with me and was very excited that I might have a good contact that might be interestled in FHTM! However, life has a way of changing what happens!! The appointment went wrong when the person's wife had emergency surgery during the weekend. I didn't want to keep calling the client sounding like I was desperate, so I did not lcall to check on the appoint to be sure it was still on. So, when my up-line showed up for the appointment, the client did not show up!! Here's what I think about that. I didn't want to make the client think I was desperate so I didn't call again after Friday! The appointment was on Monday. I should have called anyway!! It would have saved my Upline a 5 to 6 hour drive, which didn't produce anything! But, that's the business! I feel bad fvor my up-jline but I also understand about how it happened! Life happens to us all!!! Keep on keeping on!!!

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